bitter-sweet kinda humpday…

I won’t even pretend to be motivated today.  I was up and down all night withwhatever stomach thing Cameron had.  I slept until 10:45 am – thank GOD Blake was around to get the kids’ breakfast made and shuttle them off to school.  I didn’t really get to get in any conversation with my Bryan last night.  I miss him.  😦  He’s workin’ hard and I totally respect that – but I’m feeling bratty today and I need some attention!!

One of my closest friends, Megan, is bringing her daughter over in about an hour.  I am watching little miss Anissa while Megs goes to a memorial for one of her dear friends who took his life on Monday.  It’s so heartbreaking when these things happen.  I know I still struggle with wondering whether there was something I could’ve said or done to change my friend Dallas’s mind.  It’s a hard pill to swallow, and my heart is breaking for Megan right now.  I guess a lot of people in the valley knew this guy – Blake knew him as well.  I can’t say I did.  Anyway, keep his family and friends in your thoughts and prayers, please.  It’s always the ones left behind who are broken when their loved ones decide life is just too unbearable to continue on. 

Right now – I’m finishing up my oatmeal with pecans and coffee.  Dutchess is urging me to do this quickly because she is READY TO GO!  I think she’s a little more motivated today than I am for this walk.  It’s a beautiful, sunny day – but I know that sunshine is deceiving – I know it’s only 30 degrees out there right now…which is warm when compared to the temperatures we’ve had recently!

There’s a song stuck in my head.  I think it’s by ‘sixx am’.   OK, I checked and it is.  Maybe it’s in light of recent events, but I remember when I heard it, I thought of Dallas and some of my past days.  Maybe a bit of a downer – but it’s an eye opener.  Here are a few of the Lyrics.

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful

I really hope everyone has a beautiful Wednesday.  I know it’ll be harder for some than others – I just pray for closure and peace in the hearts of my friends that are dealing with this tragedy.  I love you all and I’m always here…  xo






  1. whydeprive

    I was going to get mad that you have another friend – but I guess I can let it slide since she needs your support right now.

  2. Stef @ moretolifethanlettuce

    so incredibly sad about your friend’s friend. i hope his loved ones find comfort.

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