catching up…

I feel like such a loser for not posting lately – I  kinda feel like if I don’t have something nice to say, I don’t wanna bother.  It makes me feel so negative and bitchy to post when I’m having a crap day.  Well, I should get out of that habit because I’m pretty sure everyone has a bad day or two every now and again. 

Sunday was actually a beautiful day.  It was wonderful.  I took the kiddos and Blake’s little sister, Jill, to Stubbies for lunch and we all hung out with Blake for a while.  It was his day off and he was hanging out with his buddies watching the Masters.  I have to admit, I kinda enjoy watching golf sometimes.  We had some yummy pizza and buffalo wings.  They have such good food – and even better, it and the beer I drank was free. 

jill, cam, piper, josh - playin fooseball

We also went on a nice, long hike/walk by the river – it was a beautiful day to walk downtown too. 

josh made a friend and helped him fish

Monday was a pretty beautiful day too – I went on a nice long walk.  Five miles.  I loved every minute of it, and I needed it.   Blake and I were both pretty grumpy Monday morning and when I was on my way out the door at 8:30 am to take Joshua for his sports physical, he told me I was lazy and fat.  Now – you know that set me off and I didn’t have very nice things to say after that… but he did later apologize and admit that he was just trying to get a reaction out of me. 

I had a doctor’s appointment yesterday as well as an appointment to handle some issues with my kids’ insurance.  Now, I won’t go into the insurance appointment at all – but I will say that while I was waiting, there was a Mexican guy sitting beside me with wayyy too much cologne on and listening to an MP3 player.  Out of nowhere, and really loud – he would just spout out this gangster rap in broken english.  Reallyyyy loud!   I was texting on my phone and trying hard not to look up or laugh – he looked like he was probably high and could possibly shoot me if I pissed him off. 

I have an appointment with a specialist in Denver on Monday, April 26th.  Finally – I may know what is wrong with me!  Now, I don’t like to whine,  I am in so much painnnnn!!!!  I am in constant pain anyway – and I just deal with it, without any medication other than a prescription anti-inflammatory.  Nothin narcotic.  Anyway, it’s just getting worse and yesterday was one of the worst days EVER.  Yesterday and the day I left Vegas.  I’m starting to believe that it could be stress related.  I got a call from the doctor I’ve been seeing since October and he seems to believe it’s fibromyalgia.  I have to be honest, I don’t know a lot about fibromyalgia or anything, but i just want some answers!  I want them to treat whatever is wrong with me and do it FAST because it’s just not ok to be in pain all the time.  I am sooo looking forward to summertime and I just want to enjoy myself and my children and I want to take them out and have fun with them .. camping, hiking, rafting, disc-golfing, and I really want to RUN! 

Anyway – I hope everyone is having a fantastic day.  I’m gonna go for a walk and then I have another appointment at 3.   Homework tonight and then I’m gonna be social and do a movie night since Blake offered to hang with the kiddos.  😉

Today, I am grateful for finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel!  I really think that I could be out of all this pain soon… how exciting!

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