I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately…about life and what’s really important.  I remember being a little girl and watching the disney movies and being read the fairytales.  I thought someday I would meet my prince charming and live happily ever after.  There would be everything in order and everything in its place.  The man I ended up with would adore me and I would adore him and there would never be any reason to argue or disagree.  We would have perfect and beautiful children who never talked back and who were smart and athletic and charming.  Their lives would go according to plan and I would grow old with my true love and live happily ever after…no money problems, no drama…life would be perfect.

I was wrong.

Life isn’t perfect and it has taken me thirty years and many, many mistakes to realize this.  I wouldn’t say that my life has gone according to plan – not even close.  I’ve suffered losses and heartbreak – heartbreak that was so devastating that when I look back on it, I’m not exactly sure how I survived it.  But I did.  There were times when I was so broken and had sunk so low into a pit of despair and hopelessness that I questioned my ability to raise my children.  There have been times when I gave my heart to people who didn’t deserve it and gave up on dreams that I wanted desperately but didn’t believe in myself enough to pursue. 

It hasn’t always been easy – and it isn’t easy now. 

The thing that I’ve found is that I am not promised a ‘Fairytale ending’ – Nobody is going to hand that to me in a pretty box with a ribbon wrapped around it.  It takes a lot of determination and hard work.  It takes the ability to look past the little things and step over the potholes and sometimes, when we trip up, we have to pick ourselves up and dust off and press on.  Sometimes we just have to make the very best of what we have and be thankful that we have the opportunity to live, to breathe, to read that book to your babies or brush your little girl’s hair and walk our children to school…to attend that track meet and watch with pride as your oldest son runs like the wind!  At the end of the day, it’s the little things that matter – it’s sitting quietly at the foot of your child’s bed and watching him sleep.  There’s something that fills your heart that is unlike any other feeling in the world. 

Don’t let life pass you by while you wait for something bigger and better – enjoy the life you have today.  Live for today – it’s all you have.  We aren’t promised a tomorrow.  Your fairytale?  You’re living it now!


1 Comment

  1. whydeprive

    Fairytales, Disney movies and all the love stories we see in movies are ALL LIES!
    We watch them, and want to have what they have. But youre right. Life isnt perfect.
    Sucks that we cant have those fairy tale happily every afters, but I guess thats ok right? I mean, wouldnt that get boring anyhow?

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